What is love? well, i know i have already debated on that in a few previous postS of mine, and i do not want to get repetitive. Love is sometimes very destructive..often its love which pushes us to hate. And yes, again quoting Pranks..take the example of Tom and Jerry..they love to hate each other.
People complain to my friends that I am paranoid..maybe I am..maybe I am socially dysfunctional. Do I not realise how one has to survive in society? Maybe I do not. What does it take to survive? Are my rules of survival too odd..but my defence mechanisms have become to custom built I guess, to suit my eccentricities. I am emotionally high maintenance..often which becomeS a challenge for people to handle me. I know I am too cynical, but now I realise that there is nothing I can do about it.
Pranks told me something great...she always tells great things...even when she tells me that I have gone wrong, she says that in a great way...I love her for that. She told me that she was there for me...but she would not be there for me, when i suddenly wake up in the middle of the nite. I agree that its very valid..but now I have reached such a stage, when I can handle myself when I wake up in the middle of the nite..yes, I am proud to say that emotionally I have reached that stage.
What is Hate? well, I dont know how to explain that. A lot of people think that I have much more hatred in me, than the love in my heart..maybe its true. I always said I am complicated, didnt I. I should come with that warning...Too Tough to handle!!!!
Life is not about making compromises, and often life just becomes a big compromise...coz u feel that one big compromise, can bring a smile in the faces of people who have tolerated you for 28 years. so being passive helps...yes, u do snap a lot..but u dont take grave steps, because that might jeopardise the sleep of the few people who will probably never throw you out of their lives.
Love and hate willl collide...and maybe my paranoia will continue for those who have shamelessly branded me as paranoid!!! i have tried to change myself to suit different people at different times, and always that has become a problem. I am a free bird who is choosing not to fly!!! I will fly when I want to spread my wings again!
silence is great I know..but i am not suited for that greatness....I will continue to be the way I am, and lets see where life takes me...!!!
excerpts of comments from facebook:
ReplyDeleteDebasree Das: U don't need to change urself to suit to other...ppl should accept the way ur...if they don't they have a prob not u..then y contemplate on the fact what ppl thinks n have already thought about u? Life is too short to understand so many ppl make a barricade and make changes categorically for those who matters to you a lot the rest can go to the heaps....
December 30, 2010 at 2:51am · Unlike · 1 person