Look Back In Anger !!! Well, people who know me well enough, associate this with me a lot, as I tend to bear grudges for a long long time. Yes, I do accept the fact, that looking back with anger, has been my speciality. But looking back with a smile on my face, is a feat I have achieved over time. And I feel, its an achievement which has been truly worthy through out. Learning to look back with a smile, has surely helped me mature more, and has been what can be called a truly special journey.
If I cannot smile at the same joke forever, why should I cry at the same sorrow. The pain has to fade away, and I have to let go of the pain, for it to fade away. Hence looking back with a smile, is something which has enabled the pain to start fading, and fading away fast. Earlier when I was angry, it led to arguments, fights, heartbreaks and what not. Now when I am angry, the arguments have lessened. I try to busy myself in something creative. Cooking is by far one of the best anger management remedies so far. Writing comes a close second. Yes, I am penning down my very first book, hoping to get publishers some day soon.
And how can I deny all those lovely moments, which tug at my heart to look back with a beaming smile. To forget such special moments would be a sacrilege. There are innumerable such happy moments, but its strange, we tend not to remember them, when times are low. One thing which helped me a lot was going back to old online conversations, and that somehow brings an instant smile. Its quite natural that they have a page dealing with this particular practice on a popular social networking site. Its after a popular practice, which all of us have done at some point or the other. Some mushy discussions, some naughty discussions, some friendly banter and even some so called gossip sessions, all these do bring back smiles, when I am down and out. I know it sounds super duper cliched, but also going through old photographs of happy times, crazy times, drunken revelries or romantic captures, also tugs at the heart to bring forth a grin or even a beamin smile.
A small gesture as playing my favorite Hindi numbers, on a long drive, or an idyllic walk, albeit in the cold, shall remain special. There have been numerous date nights at several so called good eateries, but taking me out for having just phuchka(panipuri), in Kolkata, is worthy of bringing a smile. Never complaining about the food, on days when I goofed up in the kitchen, how can I forget that. Being patient with my mood swings, and truly repenting for the all the wrongs, is surely praiseworthy. Yes, the man has been there and done that.
If I had to recount at moments which I can look back with a smile, the most special would be laying my eyes on the man, I call my husband, after two and half months, on a busy mid west airport, on a particular evening last year. Although we did not start talking nineteen to the dozen, or even take each in a tight hug, but I guess, it was just the look in his eyes, which did the trick. It was much more than words could say. And the semi silence between us, on the way back home, spoke a different language altogether. Often words are not enough, or often words cannot even express. Men try their best to be macho, but often there are some expressions which give away their feelings. Feelings which they sometimes do not know to properly frame in words and sentences. These are the moments which bring a smile, and which ease away the pain.
If I cannot smile at the same joke forever, why should I cry at the same sorrow. The pain has to fade away, and I have to let go of the pain, for it to fade away. Hence looking back with a smile, is something which has enabled the pain to start fading, and fading away fast. Earlier when I was angry, it led to arguments, fights, heartbreaks and what not. Now when I am angry, the arguments have lessened. I try to busy myself in something creative. Cooking is by far one of the best anger management remedies so far. Writing comes a close second. Yes, I am penning down my very first book, hoping to get publishers some day soon.
And how can I deny all those lovely moments, which tug at my heart to look back with a beaming smile. To forget such special moments would be a sacrilege. There are innumerable such happy moments, but its strange, we tend not to remember them, when times are low. One thing which helped me a lot was going back to old online conversations, and that somehow brings an instant smile. Its quite natural that they have a page dealing with this particular practice on a popular social networking site. Its after a popular practice, which all of us have done at some point or the other. Some mushy discussions, some naughty discussions, some friendly banter and even some so called gossip sessions, all these do bring back smiles, when I am down and out. I know it sounds super duper cliched, but also going through old photographs of happy times, crazy times, drunken revelries or romantic captures, also tugs at the heart to bring forth a grin or even a beamin smile.
A small gesture as playing my favorite Hindi numbers, on a long drive, or an idyllic walk, albeit in the cold, shall remain special. There have been numerous date nights at several so called good eateries, but taking me out for having just phuchka(panipuri), in Kolkata, is worthy of bringing a smile. Never complaining about the food, on days when I goofed up in the kitchen, how can I forget that. Being patient with my mood swings, and truly repenting for the all the wrongs, is surely praiseworthy. Yes, the man has been there and done that.
If I had to recount at moments which I can look back with a smile, the most special would be laying my eyes on the man, I call my husband, after two and half months, on a busy mid west airport, on a particular evening last year. Although we did not start talking nineteen to the dozen, or even take each in a tight hug, but I guess, it was just the look in his eyes, which did the trick. It was much more than words could say. And the semi silence between us, on the way back home, spoke a different language altogether. Often words are not enough, or often words cannot even express. Men try their best to be macho, but often there are some expressions which give away their feelings. Feelings which they sometimes do not know to properly frame in words and sentences. These are the moments which bring a smile, and which ease away the pain.
Truly agree with your thoughts.
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